a few years after caroline was born,
i ran into a friend that had moved away 20+ years ago.
we were reconnecting via facebook
she said, “you did it! you had your little women”.
apparently i had told her when i was 19 that i always wanted four daughters
& she actually remembered that statement.
i smile today just thinking that twenty seven years ago
i dreamed of a house full of girls.
i’ll be honest.
i’ve thought many many times over the last several weeks
about taking a blogging sabbath.
while i may blog about an occasional recipe
or a great new jewelry designer
those are all just things that fall under the umbrella
of lifestyle blogging.
i wear it on my sleeve
& process many things by talking through them.
i’m in a sorta of rough patch relating with and to a couple of my girls right now.
i don’t want to throw anyone under the bus
nor do i want to be a overdramatic chatter box
but i’m not sure that i want to process on a blog
that a couple thousand people visit a day
where i am & what i’m processing right now.
we all know, even if you haven’t birthed a baby yet,
that parenting is not for the faint of heart.
parenting teenagers isn’t easy
& parenting multiple teenage girls certainly isn’t easy.
i’ve thought about stepping away for a while
this blog is a huge vehicle for me professionally.
while i have decided to continue blogging for now
you may see an intentional decrease in how i share some of my personal life
(or you may not notice it at all.)
nothings majorly wrong.
no one’s dying or has run away.
if i weren’t so afraid that turning off the comments would delete all the past comments
i’d do that today too.
i just wanted to explain where i’m coming from.
it takes a lot of emotional energy to be vulnerable
& right now i just don’t seem to have it.
when things aren’t right even my creativity is zapped.
personally i don’t want my blog to just be businesslike
or all about “other” things
but it may be for a little while.
thanks for understanding & sticking with me anyway.