simple thoughts~encouragement captured through image & word
hello! i'm paige & i'm so glad you're here.
simple thoughts is my personal journal. my life is not perfect, yet i humbly open the pages of my story & invite you to c'mon in and stay a while.
i consider myself blessed beyond measure to share life with dan and our four girls, savannah, madison, emily & caroline.
a lover of caffeine free diet coke, monograms, anthropologie, running, my golden retriever brinkley and above all else, jesus.
seeing life through a lens, i constantly find myself thinking of my world as art, full of color and beauty . it's my attempt to capture the grandeur of everyday that can easily be passed over. after receiving requests and encouragement from friends and family, i launched my own business, paige knudsen photography, in the fall of 2011. i'm a natural light photographer serving the atlanta area.
recently another passion found it's way into my heart. Noonday Collection . noonday offers accessories handmade by vulnerable groups of people around the world. our aim is to style you while creating a pathway out of poverty for artisans and their families through dignified sustainable income. having been widowed at the age of 30, i feel a kindred connection with many of these women. you can be a voice for the oppressed too!
okay. so take 2. i posted this yesterday and at some point my website was hacked. after speaking to my host provider i heard that wordpress has been hit a large amount this week. now, over 24 hours later i’m hoping i’m back up and running smoothly after “being restored” . unfortunately the restore took out my last couple posts and a large amount of work/images i had laboriously added to my portfolio. sadly, i had received some of THE sweetest, most tender comments on this post & the one prior and now they’re all lost. thank you hacker. i cruised through reader & did a quick little copy/paste and planted this one back up again.anyways….enough complaining….enjoy….
Seems like all I could see was the struggle Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past Bound up in shackles of all my failures Wondering how long is this gonna last Then You look at this prisoner and say to me”son Stop fighting a fight it’s already been won”
I am redeemed, You set me free So I’ll shake off these heavy chains Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be I am redeemed, I’m redeemed
All my life I have been called unworthy Named by the voice of my shame and regret But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head” I remember, oh God, You’re not done with me yet
Because I’ve got a new name, a new life, I’m not the same And a hope that will carry me home
i’ll be honest, the past week or so has been a tough time for me spiritually.
i’d share the details of the recurrent situation but it’s not really important to the story. suffice to say, it’s a big huge chapter in my little book of issues where i can allow fear to literally eat me alive.
”I’m not who i used to be, cause i am redeemed”
i believe this is true. but sometimes my mind, my spirit & my heart don’t all line up in a neat little marching row and allow me to act as a believer of this promise should act.
we all have consequences for our sins. or for this particular situation, i’ll use the word “decisions”. that’s a less in- your- face term. so, we all have consequences for our decisions. both good & bad decisions. however, i think for those of us who have tangible consequences that are repetitive or ongoing, trying to move on past those sins of the past, or poor decisions is almost impossible. well that’s the situation for me. it’s as if i have an ongoing reminder of a poor decision from years ago. just fear and shame and ugliness always rises to the surface when i think about the situation.
it’s easy for me to accept jesus loves me. primarily because i have a loving earthly father & married two loving men, i don’t doubt His love. jesus came that we may have life & a full life. free from bondage, free from chains that bind us up. chains like shame and regret. chains like fear and worry. that’s where i struggle.
i sometimes wonder if i will always need to make the, sometimes daily, choice to lay these issues down. it’s honestly a reminder to me that i’m not all that. i’m in need of grace. every single day. there’s a place in my heart that only Jesus can fill. that’s honestly how we were made. i believe, anyway.
several times this week, as i would lay my head down at night i felt He would impress on my heart the following~~ don’t be afraid, i have redeemed you. i have called you by name. you’re mine. i’ll never leave you. i’ve healed you. your sins are forgiven & i’ve removed all of them ( poor decisions too) as far apart as the east is from the west. they are remembered no more. now rise up & forgive yourself. and rest in me.
i heard that in my heart night after night.
furthermore, as corny as it may seem, during the dolphin show at the Georgia Aquarium, there was a part in the show where a large magnificent image up on the screen ( yes it was related to the dolphins, okay?) said confidently and loudly, “fear not”. tears just spilled down my cheeks. it was another reminder, amidst dozens all week long, to lay down the fear. ( and yes, the dolphins were brave too)
so, back to the song. to hear the words “I’m not who i used to be, cause i am redeemed” is a balm to my soul.
i encourage you to push play on the video ( after you X out the little ad along the bottom). close your eyes and let these lyrics marinate in your heart. let the truth that you are a new person in christ just flow through your spirit like a river. because He has already paid the price for all of it. and it’s wiped away, as far as the east is from the west. we’re the ones that choose to tote our past around. when i carry around all the yuck or “stupid me” or the regret or the whatever it’s as if i’m saying the cross wasn’t enough.
“child lift up your head”, He loves you & He’s not through with you yet. now i’m off to do the same. i am redeemed. He’s set me free & He’s not through with me yet.