within the fear

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thank ya’ll so much for checking in on us this week.

the day of dan’s tests i asked him if he was totally fine with me sharing. i’ve told ya’ll before i’m basically an open book. i’m not good at being alone and i sure don’t do stress & fear alone. there’s power in knowing that friends can storm the gates of heaven and pray for you when all you can do is try to calm your own terrifying thoughts and racing mind.

he said absolutely. so through my facebook & instagram, i’ve shared what we know. which is basically that the doctor biopsied several places along dan’s gi system. he found a mass that he’s very concerned about. sometime this week we should know final results and then surgery will be scheduled.

my sweet friend has checked on me several times & knows i’m terrified. and she knows i love the lord.  i love what she replied to me:

“jesus felt afraid. fear doesn’t mean you don’t know HIM.

but let him into the fear.

HE IS with you.

a warrior who is mighty to save. 

imagine HIM as a warrior standing watch over dan-fighting FOR him.

and a warrior standing guard over your heart-fighting for peace”

as i’ve fallen asleep each night since all this began, i close my eyes & visualize a mighty warrior standing guard over my mind and my heart. i visualize a mighty warrior –the GOD of angel armies–standing guard over my dan.

i’m terrified. i am. i’m trying not to be ya’ll. but i know that i know that i know that no matter what may come this week, i have a loving, good, all faithful heavenly father. and my family, my dan, is indeed in HIS mighty right hand

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” isaiah 41.10

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(pics are totally unrelated. i’m just waaaay behind in posting)

September 2, 2014 - 7:36 am

amy maze - I know everyone joins me in concern and prayers for you and your family! let’s face it…we all love your dan!! stay strong, keep praying:)

September 2, 2014 - 7:43 am

Deb Hearn - So praying for your Dan, your girls and YOU lovely Paige,,,all the way from the Yankee north-Indiana 🙂 Although I don’t really feel like a Yankee 😉

September 2, 2014 - 7:58 am

Lynn - Thank you for always being so open and honest with your readers. We are all keeping you, Dan and the girls in our thoughts and prayers this week.

September 2, 2014 - 8:39 am

ellie - praying for your Dan, and your precious hearts to be filled with peace. – thanks for keeping us in the loop.

xo ellie

September 2, 2014 - 8:47 am

dana - Praying with you and for you. At times like these, I am reminded of God’s people standing at the Red Sea…feeling closed in on all sides…seeing no way out. Then God provided a way across…a way which no one could’ve ever imagined. So thankful for a God who is bigger than any challenge we face. Praying peace as you wait.

September 2, 2014 - 9:34 am

Peggy - Thank you! I needed this today! Still praying for you my dear friend!

September 2, 2014 - 9:37 am

Annie Foster - Isaiah 45:2-3 I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you Paige hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know I am The Lord, the God of Isreal, who summons you by name.
Praying today that you will see hidden treasure….your family is so precious to The Lord and he holds you all in His Mighty Palm!!

September 2, 2014 - 10:20 am

Katherine @ Grass Stains - Paige, the waiting is so hard. So, so hard. The thought of you having to go through this again is just … unthinkable. Praying that you will just feel a blanket of peace that only the Lord can provide as you wait! We are all pulling for you guys. Love to all from Birmingham.

September 2, 2014 - 10:24 am

D'Nese - From the first time you shared this info about Dan you all have been in my thoughts and prayers. I won’t stop either. Please continue to keep us all updated. Lots of love and hugs.

September 2, 2014 - 10:40 am

martha - Oh Paige, this word picture from your friend is just the dearest. love it. and the commenter ab the red sea and a way opening up. Visuals are just the best. praying for your family. Hoping you get more word on Dan SOON. Press on in closer to Him.hugs from franklin.

September 2, 2014 - 11:34 am

Donna - Love and prayers to you and your family. God is with you and he will comfort you all. You have been in my thoughts. Your daughter is so adorable. I don’t know you but I certainly share that fear factor with you. I always stress about everyone.,but God is so good. He has this and you know it.

September 2, 2014 - 12:47 pm

Julie McBryde - You’re doing exactly the right thing 🙂 praying as well….

September 2, 2014 - 1:08 pm

Polly - Hi Paige and family, Amy said it all, we love you and your family and Dan of course! Trust in the Lord, my faith in him has completely turned this Indiana girl around, prayers and good thoughts coming your way:)

September 2, 2014 - 1:45 pm

chrissi - a mighty warrior. how i love this image. that He fights for each of us continues to bring me peace. we are praying for a bit of peace in your life right now. God bless and keep each of you♥

September 2, 2014 - 1:58 pm

Kathy - Have thought and prayed for you and your family many times in recent days. Waiting for results is awful. Peace and healing is my daily prayer for you. You are such a blessing through your sharing and example. Thank you. And, your youngest daughter is adorable! Love her style!!

September 2, 2014 - 4:34 pm

Katie - Prayers from Milwaukee, WI

September 2, 2014 - 6:44 pm

Christy - Thank you for updating us on Dan! LOVE what your friend said!
Praying for each of you each and every day!
Keep holding on to what you know to be true!
Much love,

September 2, 2014 - 8:05 pm

Christy - I have a dear friend who’s name is Dan too facing a serious health concern. through your journey and honesty, you have encouraged me and my friend(I forwarded the link). our God is mighty and Jesus is interceding right now for your Dan and my Dan! You are in my prayers! Christy

September 2, 2014 - 11:10 pm

Kelly - Praying right now for your sweet Dan! God is good and is watching over him.

September 2, 2014 - 11:27 pm

Andrea - Paige……just as I said on instagram….I’m still sending prayers. It’s amazing to me how I have never met you or your family, but I can’t stop thinking about you all and sending prayers your way. I don’t know you, but I feel like “you got this…..” I understand fear, but I think you need to hear how strong I see you as……. you and all your family. STRONG…..you all got this. Sending prayers and hugs to you all.

September 3, 2014 - 5:41 am

Jackie - Dearest Paige,

I saw the final diagnosis on Facebook this morning, and my heart aches for you because I remember you lost your first husband to cancer. So I can only imagine the overwhelming fear and panic that must filling your heart and mind. I wish there were some way I could make it go away. I truly admire your courage in sharing so openly; for allowing community to stand with you. For inviting us into those dark places. Know that the saints will and are standing with you and Dan and your precious girls. You are not alone in the battle. What your friend shared with you is so powerful; it spoke even to me. So, you see, even as you struggle and face this mountain, your sincerity and sharing is encouraging others. And always, always pointing to Jesus. You are so beautiful in my sight. I’m so blessed to “know” you through social media. I will be praying for you and Dan, and your girls as you undertake this journey one day at a time. Strength and courage to you, dear girl. You are loved.

September 3, 2014 - 7:11 am

Bobbi - Praying for all of you!

September 3, 2014 - 8:27 am

Jan Fusco - Praying for Dan and all of you.

September 3, 2014 - 8:50 am

Betty in NC - Dearest Knudsen Family
While I’ve never written I’ve been a long time lurker of your blog. 🙂 Over the years you’ve written things and have posted things that have made me smile and impacted my life in such a positive manner.
Right now you need to know that all of us lurkers are behind you and your family lifting you up in prayer. I can only imagine how frightening this must be but your faith is so strong and God is so powerful I can only believe that He will watch over your family and see you through this. We will see you through this and give you strength when yours is running low. Praying for your all.

September 3, 2014 - 10:12 am

robin - I just love it and it means so much when God speaks out loud to us or in real life for us through the words and mouths of our friends. What powerful words and visual your friend gave you…and you in turn have given me. It is hard to “be strong and courageous” sometimes, but with THE Mighty Warrior standing over us guarding us we are safe in his arms, no matter what. If God is for us, who can stand against us…after all he is a God of miracles. Praise God!


That last photo…priceless!

September 3, 2014 - 10:37 am

vearnail - Praying for you sweet Paige and your precious family. Your life story is so, so very close to my own story. I’m standing in the gap with you now, believing in our God. Thank you for sharing with us all. You are truly an inspiration.

September 3, 2014 - 12:06 pm

jodi - I’ve been thinking about you girl….I know so many have too…and so many are sending thoughts and prayers…I am saying my prayers for y’all too. I am sure you are scared…you have to be…it’s so normal…why wouldn’t you be…but just know that your faith, your family and friends (and social media friends) are with you 110%.

Please take care and big huge hugs to ya!!!

ps….totally love the pics.


September 3, 2014 - 9:11 pm

Suzanne - Paige, I’ve had you, Dan
and your family on my
heart….And I have to think
there is an ARMY of angels
right there with me and all
of your loving family and
friends. My mantra in times
of stress is

“Let go and
let God ~”

And as hard as it must be
at this very minute, I hope
you can do just that.

Will continue to send prayers!

xo Suzanne

PS: WHEN did your baby
turn into this beauty? Wowza.

September 3, 2014 - 10:11 pm

Rebecca - Praying for Dan, you and your sweet family.

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