within both the unknown and the known

day 5 & 6 076-001

Okay sweet friends. We were called into meet with dan’s GI guy yesterday….

Dan has colon cancer.

Biopsies of the esophagus were clear, which is a praise because i was worried about that for sure. Honestly, he told me the morning of the colonoscopy that he was quite certain the mass was cancer.  So,we’ve been already processing through this for several days.  Tomorrow he will have CT scan and we have surgical consult scheduled for tuesday.

The DR was very hopeful. He told us this mass is relatively small.  and if there is no cancer found on CT and during surgery then the surgery will be it!!  He said even if some is found in some local lymph nodes that’s still very treatable. He said while he can’t promise he is hopeful that this is indeed early.

Honestly I feel way more encouraged than last week.  I really do feel lifted up in prayer AND I do feel very encouraged as does dan.

So here’s the deal. I’ve walked a similar road before. I’ve sat across from a doctor while he told my husband that he has cancer.  I’ve taken deep breaths & taken one step at a time as i walked back to the car to begin the new. and I’ve never doubted that the Lord is good. God is faithful. He has us. This awful disease was not a surprise to him. To me & dan, yes. But not to Him.  He will guide us and He will be with us.  My faith in Him has never been nor will it ever be shaken.

When it comes to medical things, i tend to be a worrier. I’m not a pollyanna and sometimes my glass of realism struggles with hanging in at half full.   I do not believe in what might be considered health & wealth gospel and am not a fan of those ( some quite popular right now) who preach it. I know this is a broken world. I know bad things happen to good people and all the good thoughts in the world won’t make cancer go away.  While i have no promise of tomorrow and the health of my husband, I have the promises of a faithful god.  If you come here please know, that i will forever give HIM all the glory. good or bad. happy or sad. health & wealth or real life. i will.

Another thing about coming here, to this blog, just as i told my daughters last night, i will not keep secrets from them. I will be real with them & I am real here as well.  On days where i post about silly things like jewelry and food, then fantastic.  and on the days where i share raw thoughts, well, i’ll try to give you a heads up.

Thank you for loving us & for SO many of ya’ll who have flooded us with words of love and encouragement. You have NO idea what an enormous blessing that is. No idea. I am forever grateful.

 

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more

than all we ask or imagine,

according to his power that is at work within us,

to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus

throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

ephesians 3.20 & 21

September 3, 2014 - 9:28 pm

Paige Wright - Sigh….you know I plan on this….after you have gone through it once just as you have… I am not really a worrier but I expect it…does that make sense??? I don’t wish it upon myself again but as Jeff always said when he had cancer “why not me?” I know your faith will carry you both through this time…I commit to pray daily for you both! I pray that this road will not be as frightening and will be “as easy as it gets” as far as cancer goes. And yes!!! cancer sucks!! hugs friend!!!!!!!

September 3, 2014 - 9:29 pm

chania - Your family is in my thoughts. Wishing Dan healing and recovery and strength to all of you.

September 3, 2014 - 9:58 pm

Kacey - I’m so sorry to read this. I don’t know you or your beautiful family, but you will continue to be in my prayers.

September 3, 2014 - 9:59 pm

Rachel - Prayers and good thoughts your way….

September 3, 2014 - 10:03 pm

Linsey @ Bravehearted Beauty - Praying Ephesians 3:20 & 21 with you. One of my favorite verses to pray. YES and AMEN.

September 3, 2014 - 10:07 pm

JuliaW - So sorry to hear this. May you feel God’s loving arms around you hugging you tightly and lifting you up as you travel this journey. Will keep you and all your family in my prayers.

September 3, 2014 - 10:16 pm

Lori H - Amen, Paige. Amen!

September 3, 2014 - 10:32 pm

Pam - Your strength is amazing! Dan and all of you will be in my prayers. God bless

September 3, 2014 - 10:48 pm

Tammie - Paige and family,
My thoughts and prayers go out to each and every one of you, I think of you several times a day and wish for the best. I want to Thank you for being real Paige and sharing with us all that has to be very hard but you have always shown me what an amazing and strong person you are and for that you will alway be in my thoughts and prayers.

September 3, 2014 - 11:22 pm

Katherine @ Grass Stains - Paige, this isn’t what I was hoping to hear, but I’m so glad you are sharing this with us so that we can support you, Dan and the girls. You’re no stranger to adversity, but I wish you weren’t being tested again! I know it’s not a matter of it “being fair or unfair,” but it just breaks my heart to know that you all are going through the emotional wringer right now. Hugs from Alabama.

September 3, 2014 - 11:28 pm

ellie - we are all fighting this with you girl. your transparency invites us in – and we are IN!!
praying.praying.praying.

xo ellie

And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.
1 Peter 5:10(ESV)

September 3, 2014 - 11:45 pm

Helen Washington - I first visited your blog because of the gorgeous pictures.
But I have remained because of the heart behind the lens and the faith that I see pouring out of each word written. I know that the Father has your whole family firmly in the palm of his hands and is covering you with great tenderness, affection and protection.
Praying for you all.

September 4, 2014 - 1:59 am

Janelle Barrett - Oh Paige, you and your sweet family are in my thoughts and prayers!

September 4, 2014 - 9:06 am

angela - so thankful the report sounds encouraging. two or three are definitely gathered to pray. loving you from afar.

September 4, 2014 - 9:57 am

Rebecca - Much love…and many prayers for Dan, and for you.

September 4, 2014 - 9:59 am

Susie - Oh Paige, my heart sank when I read the words colon cancer. I paused and just stared at those words. I didn’t want to believe what I was reading. Then, as I began to read on, I was encouraged by your words and I realized that whatever is thrown your way, you have the strength and faith to get through it. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

xoxo,
susie

September 4, 2014 - 10:01 am

bri mckoy - paige! I have been praying for you and dan and your family. I am so grateful for you and your heart and your faithfulness to God. You are a bright light. Much love and grace to you. Xoxo

September 4, 2014 - 10:47 am

Denise - Oh Paige! I love the lens to your heart-soul! Idk of that is even a word…but the heart is spoken thru a lens to your everlasting soul!
I hate cancer! I do LOVE what the Lord Jesus chooses to use for His glory through it! #althoughitpainstheonesthatloveeachother
I really have no words….except…I’ve cried and screamed for you at God because I know he understands my heart! And He understands y’ all’s hearts too! He is faithful and will carry you one “moment” at a time…and that’s all you Need! I’m here for you and on my knees to the throne room of heaven!

September 4, 2014 - 11:12 am

louise - Only now reading this. So sorry you are going through such a scare . . . once again. The dr sounds verym very hopeful and that is wonderful. I really admire your faith and strength, and I know you don’t think you are strong. I do though. I don’t think strength is never feeling scared, I don’t think strength is even having the ability to not let your mind “go there” (some people seem better at that than others, I’m not great at that) I think strength is feeling the fear and anxiety and being loving and caring and doing what you need to do and in your case having faith stronger than ever, anyway. Beutiful photo.

September 4, 2014 - 12:38 pm

Kitty - Praying for you and Dan and your family!

September 4, 2014 - 1:00 pm

Kaylee Coles - I’m so sorry to hear this! My uncle had colon cancer a few years back and has recovered beautifully so I will be praying that your husband does too.

September 4, 2014 - 1:18 pm

Destiny - I have written no less than three comments and as many emails, since reading this post, deleting them all because I just can’t find the right words… Please know that I am sorry and that I am praying.

September 4, 2014 - 1:41 pm

chrissi - we are praying for you and dan and the girls and carrying you in our hearts♥

September 4, 2014 - 1:44 pm

Ella - I am praying for you & Dan. The world is a better place because Dan is in it & the world continues to need him.

September 4, 2014 - 3:10 pm

Pam - Your faith, love and glory to God is…wow, so amazing.

I know Dan is in the hands of the ALMIGHTY healer!

Praying for you!

September 4, 2014 - 3:13 pm

Brenda - I am praying for you and Dan. There is such peace in knowing that God has our best in mind. It may not be what we would choose but He is always good and faithful. Sometimes hard for me to remember in the storms but what a wonderful thing to cling to.

September 4, 2014 - 3:15 pm

Shon - Paige! I have been thinking of you all and this is probably why! I will be praying for your sweet family through this difficult time. Thank you for sharing your faith and always keeping it 100(real as they say.) Our church closes every Sunday with your verse above as our benediction! This Sunday I will light a candle for Dan and all of you! God is still on the throne!!

September 4, 2014 - 3:17 pm

Alecia - Praying for you all. I asked my community group to lift you all up in prayer as well. We have a God who is our healer…I believe He uses doctors, nurses & medications sometimes to bring about that healing…He doesn’t have to but sometimes that’s the way He works…other times it’s just miraculous! I’m praying for healing in any way the Lord wants to do that. I’m praying for added grace to fall on you & Dan as you face this. I pray for those you all come in contact with…if they don’t know Jesus, I pray His light continues to shine brightly through you all in a way they can no longer deny Him! To Him be all the glory in this season you’re walking into. Wish I could give you all a great big hug…let the girls know I’m praying for them as well.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13
Praying you all are overflowing with Hope during this time.

September 4, 2014 - 3:23 pm

Gina - Praying for Dan and your whole family!! You’re faith is an encouragement to me today as my great nephew is in his third day of a year’s stay at St. Judes for Ewing’s Sarcoma. God is good, He loves us, and He is in control. :)

September 4, 2014 - 4:04 pm

Ruth - My thoughts and prayers and with you and your family. Our prayers will be heard.

September 4, 2014 - 5:05 pm

Hannah Avery - Praying for y’all!

September 4, 2014 - 5:23 pm

Amber Ellis - Praying for your sweet husband, you and your girls during this season of life. You’re God’s girl and I pray he wraps his comforting arms around you and Dan. I’m so glad you are a believer. I don’t know how people go through times like these without Christ. Praying for complete and quick healing for Dan. Love and Prayers always….

September 4, 2014 - 5:27 pm

Heidi @ Decor & More - I have no words of comfort, Paige, but I will be praying. Your faith is a thing of beauty and inspiration to so many… may WE all be a source of hope, love, and encouragement for you and yours. God Bless, Heidi

September 4, 2014 - 5:27 pm

Kelly - You are a beautiful family, and Dan seems like such a beautiful husband. Praying for healing for your wonderful, sweet man.

September 4, 2014 - 5:34 pm

Kathy - You are an inspiration. I will continue to keep you all in my prayers. Thank you for your words and witness.

September 4, 2014 - 5:35 pm

Beth - My prayers are with you and your family.

September 4, 2014 - 7:23 pm

Jan Fusco - The moment I saw your email post I paused and gasped before I read it and told my husband sitting next to me a quick story version of your situation. Husband past and present. I held my breath as I read and BOOM…there it was…Dan has cancer. My heart sank and as I read on, your strength, faith and love of God burst through everything. While I was tearing up at this news wanting to fall apart for you, there you were resting in God’s love and faithfulness. You’re witness always encourages me. Although I would hope that I would handle it like you I’m kind of a “fall apart kind of person” even though I would know at all times that God is in control and knows our every need. Please know that I will have you, Dan and the girls on my prayer list. It does sound encouraging and I look forward to good reports.

September 4, 2014 - 7:44 pm

patty - it is that honesty that is so refreshing. your courage and faith are great examples to all, and i’m sure your daughters and husband find great strength in it. xo

September 4, 2014 - 11:35 pm

Kimberly - Sweet Paige, I have no words of wisdom or advice as this is a road I have yet to walk. However I do know the love that you and that handsome man of yours share and that love will carry you through this together. I will be praying for you both~ Love you.

September 5, 2014 - 12:31 pm

Joleen - I love that you say that this was not a surprise to Him, and that He will take care of you. You have your roots sunk in deep, just where they should be, and tho you might bend in the wind, you won’t break. Because you have faith only in the God who is constant.

September 6, 2014 - 8:08 pm

Teresa H, Fields - We may not know the future, but we know who holds the future. Prayers and Hugs.

September 7, 2014 - 10:28 pm

Nicole - You probably know that there are a ton of cancer support groups, and that there are businesses who want to serve families – everything from yoga to housecleaning. People who’ve been through this can heal from helping others. Best wishes on dealing with this horrible disease.

September 8, 2014 - 1:48 pm

Shelle - Many thoughts and prayers from Indiana…

September 10, 2014 - 9:27 pm

Becky @ Farmgirl Paints - Oh friend just catching up. I’m so sorry. Sounds like the best possible situation though. It’s gonna be alright. Praying!!! Hard hug.

September 10, 2014 - 9:30 pm

Cynth - Oh Paige! As a long time follower, I want you to know I will be praying for you…and I want you to also know that even through this, what a blessing you are