a few weeks ago i stood bedside & captured some amazing moments while a precious young mama labored & gave birth to her first baby. over & over again i thought to myself, i just did this. i just did this! it was just the other day when i brought my first baby girl into the world. i guess that’s the sign of a good life right? when looking back over all of it, even when along the way there was heartache, hand in hand there is joy overflowing & it all feels so fast. all the simple everyday moments have added up to be a grand & beautiful life beyond all i ever dreamed.
the anticipation & excitement, the wonder & overwhelming joy, the emotion of the grandeur of it all. the beginning of a new family. the beginning of a new & amazing chapter in your story. the feelings of how on earth am i going to do this? the moment when your baby is placed in your arms
& think to yourself its as if she was always here.
during the hours while i captured the birth story i found myself relating not only to the new mommy but to her own mama as well. i’d watch her own emotions as she watched her baby girl labor. i wondered what that must fee like. not only to see your daughter in the pain of labor but to know what lies ahead as she brings forth her own baby.
in 29 days i will watch my first baby girl walk into her own new & amazing chapter.
the anticipation & excitement, the wonder & overwhelming joy, the emotion of the grandeur of it all. the beginning of a new family. the beginning of a new & amazing chapter in her story. the feelings of how on earth am i going to do this? the moment when my baby girl is placed in the arms of the man she will spend forever with. the man who embodies the exceedingly more i prayed for since she was in my womb.
& i’ll think to myself it’s as if he was always here…
i’d thought i would journal & chronicle all the planning, all the little details, the highs & the lows & all the in-between. and honestly while it’s a bit ( no it’s truly my #1 pet peeve to say this)….ohmygosh we have been so busy!! can all mother’s of the bride who’ve gone before me give a resounding amen?
in all honesty, i also didn’t want to steal any of savannah’s thunder. but i’ll tell you the truth the anticipation & excitement, the wonder & overwhelming joy, the emotion of the grandeur of it all…it has a life of it’s own. it’s been a part of us since new years eve. i don’t know what i’ll do with all the mental energy i’ve used since that day when on sunday morning, august 21, my baby girl will be on a flight out of the country for her honeymoon. they’ll land back in atlanta a week later, pack up their uhaul & drive out the next morning to san francisco…to live. 3000 miles away.
i have much to share over the next several months. i do. really i’ll share about all the things i promise. but first let me answer the question I’m sure you’re thinking after i just mentioned the california gig.
i mentioned that just yesterday i gave birth to my first baby girl. well let me tell ya’ something. that precious brown haired brown eyed girl came out of the womb independent with an adventurous spirit. a nod to me & a nod to her daddy gregg. while i’ve traveled more in the last five years than i did in the previous forty years, savannah’s always had wanderlust. i knew the day would come where she’d drive away. i just didn’t know it’d be quite so far.
since i promised ya’ll i’d be honest, i’ll tell you this…at first i was like what? why would you wanna move this far away from your family…from me?! ( ha. i kid) i knew from before trevor proposed they were headed up & away. ( i’ll share more about all this later…i wanna flip ahead a bit for you).
i began praying a few weeks ago that the lord would help change my heart. & he is. i want to genuinely be happy for them…not let that happiness be overshadowed by the sadness of how far away they’ll be. ya’ll know i don’t like sad anyways. one day i felt he gave me a new song about this new chapter. let me share it with you….this move to san francisco….its a HUGE gift to them. and all good gifts are from Him. it’s a huge gift because they have honored Him in their relationship. it’s a huge gift because they sought Him first. they’ve purposed to follow Him and i truly see this as Him giving them the desires of their heart. these kids have worked hard. studied hard. dreamed hard. and the opportunities afforded them….it’s a GIFT. and for that i am so happy for them. how could i be sad about their gift? how could i be sad in how He has chosen to bless them? don’t let me fool you, my heart really & truly has switched to seeing this as a gift but of course the hole left behind will be palpable. processing this huge change is not going to be for the faint of heart. we’ll walk through that all together.
i can’t imagine how my heart is going to work through it all. i was caught off guard with how hard it was to send her off to college. this is even bigger. and for longer. and to all the people that say ‘oh it’s just a flight away’ i wanna say seriously. it’s a flight away. a long flight away. a long expensive flight away. the funny thing? when her daddy gregg & i married, our honeymoon was a surprise to me. a trip to san francisco & the wine country. i remember thinking “i could live here”…in just a little past 29 days…so will my baby.
i would love to share her wedding site…the way they tell their story is precious….enjoy here!