so much better together

“we’re so much better together than either of us would be on our own”

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the last couple weeks my heart has been feeling a little wonky. i was talking to myself on the way to the gym this morning , which now that there’s such a thing as bluetooth it makes talking to myself seem not so weird and if anything, somewhat unremarkable. even though don’t have a bluetooth ( which incidentally i often times accidentally refer to as blue fish. it’s genetic ya’ll. what can i say) i presume that anyone that looks over at me at a red light assumes that i have the bluetooth thingy in the opposite ear. makes my verbal processing self much more efficient as i attempt to figure myself out.

this is already clear as mud isn’t it?

so basically this morning my talk got stuck on the “i’m so disappointed in myself for feeling…well…disappointed. like shake it off already. gather what you know girl and get it going. make a change. pull up your boot straps and do what needs to be done. change your schedule. change your attitude. make things better. be the change. “….then it went to…..”am i spending my time wisely? does blogging really matter? it takes so much time and who reads it anyways? great bloggers write books and do amazing things. what have i done lately? i can’t even keep up with a monthly menu”. see! guilt & frustration and disappointment sure make for a slippery slope of yuck and lies. and i do not often talk & think like that! can we all join hands & say out loud–ain’t nobody got time for that!

i’ve read several soul bearing posts lately. and i’ve read several powerful, beautiful, joy filled posts lately as well. i love cheering on my friends ( & even my sorta friends, like people i know through social media but if we met in real life we’d so totally be real life friends) as they do what they do. friends that have bravely blazed new trails. made radical decisions in their families lives. intentional lifestyles that inspire me like crazy.  marathon running, artists and entrepreneurs. i have friends that are seriously making a difference in their world. in the world. starting organizations, writing books/ebooks and traveling. speaking. raising children with love and mercy and grace that seems almost inconceivable. just arms-wide-open women living right where the lord put them. wildly in community. bravely behind a MAC. loving and living with boldness. wherever they are. just doing the next best, the next right thing. all sorta women. i love watching them do what they do well.

one of them is my real life friend melanie. i love this gorgeous, chips & salsa eatin’ texan. she’s the real deal. this should come as no surprise, but she’s even funnier in real life and yes, her hair is as incredible as you would imagine. and….she loves well. melanie is releasing her second–ATTA GIRL!!!–book tomorrow.  i laughed and cried, those emotions experienced within about 4 minutes of each other, my way through sparkly green earrings and something tells me i’ll do the same with the antelope in the living room.

i mentioned reading some amazing posts recently. i encourage you to read this one. i wept after reading this. i texted her & said things that made no sense other than basically ” i think you’re awesome”…..she blew me away. this is a little excerpt from that post-

“Because here’s the thing, it’s easier to sit on your couch than to risk failing. It’s easier to sit on your couch than to be out in the world where you’re vulnerable and open to being hurt or disappointed. But you know what happens while you sit on your couch playing Candy Crush and watching Tami Taylor? Life. Beautiful, gorgeous, fragile, heartbreaking, mind-blowing, life. God has a script written for each and every one of us, no matter who we are or what we’ve done or how much we feel completely ill-equipped for the adventure.”

gosh i got all choked up again just copy & pasting it.

opening your heart in any format takes bravery. while sharing about the highs & lows can seem a little tricky maneuver at the dinner table on some days, opening your world up in book format, dare i say, is even more so! i love that she brings humor to the table & makes the every day and the ordinary day something to be cherished and celebrated. with her man of 16 years!

in her video, melanie said about perry, “we’re so much better together than either of us would be on our own”. this statement is true in so very many ways. we aren’t made to go through life alone. all lone ranger style. for some of us who like to keep the hurt and ugly all packed away because the sunhiney, happy & joyful days are so much more preferred,  i’m thankful for this simple yet profound reminder to not isolate myself. a reminder that the lord placed people in our lives as a gift to be the hands and feet of his heart.and the reverse is just as important, just at true.

melanie, we are indeed so much better together. you’re so right pretty girl.  i love you sweet friend . i love that you wanted to sit with me at allume and i love that you have a big antelope on the wall of your home and that we both have carolines. i have a whole new love for taxidermy because of you. so my friend,  i’m cheering you on this week!!! i’m cheering you on big time!

 

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February 3, 2014 - 6:16 pm

Lemonade Makin' Mama - Hey girl! First of all, I’ve been buried in work over here and know that I’ve missed a bunch of your posts… I hate that but until I clone myself that seems to be how it goes when I’m working. That said Don’t you dare question yourself on this blogging thing because you DO make a difference. You are such a real, breath of fresh, encouraging air to me. Just adore you for that and what you bring to the blog community. 2) i love that you support others and cheer them on. That makes a huge difference to the ones you are cheering on, let me tell you. 3) I have questioned all the things you referred to, even as recently as last week and had the “does anyone really care” feeling too. It sucks but it’s the enemy trying to get us down.

February 3, 2014 - 6:58 pm

Natalie - Agree with LMM… you can’t quit blogging because it puts a smile on face as soon as it pops in my inbox! And you are a great encourager! But being all outta sorts is for the birds but the lessons learned on the other side are worth it. And I cannot wait to read this new book… she’s awesome and so are you!

February 3, 2014 - 7:26 pm

Kim from 3 peanuts - Sweet Paige,

I know you are not seeking confirmation but I am gonna shout it out to you anyway. You make such a difference!!!!! There are the book writers and there are the inspiring everyday post writers. You inspire many and bring them closer to God every. single. day. I love that when I come here. Every time…I feel closer to who God wants me to be. ANd girl if you are doing that…YOU are doing HIS work. So, keep doing it.
And I love you. And I love that you talk to yourself and pretend you’re on a blue fish. Enough said!

I don’t think anyone reads my lil bloggy anymore. That is okay. People have gotten all viral and all commercial and I still just post about my lil family. But that is okay cause it is a heartfelt gift to them. I remind myself that I have an audience of one…HIM!

February 3, 2014 - 7:53 pm

Amy Avery - But you see sweet friend, the fact of the matter is that you DO make a difference. Despite the feelings of inadequacy that you have that you aren’t really doing anything, you ARE! Just this very post alone does so much. It says, “I am human and I need something other than me to get me through tough times because I can’t so this thing called life by myself nor do I want to.” God called you to be YOU not someone else and that’s just the thing about you Paige, you are YOU. You love with a heart that is God’s OWN. God’s heart is alive and beating inside of YOU because you said, “I need someone besides me to lean on,” and then you did the most remarkable thing, you trusted God to pull up you up by your bootstraps, you trusted God to “change your schedule. change your attitude. make things better. be the change.” You DO that every. single. moment. of. the. day. YOU inspire others Paige because you are living into the person whom God made you to be. God made YOU Paige in his image and he made you to do what only you, Paige Knudson, can do uniquely as you. You don’t have to write a book, or start an enterprise, or cure cancer to be making a difference in this world. All God asks us to do is to be the person he created us to be, to trust in him and to allow him to use us so that he can bring his kingdom here on earth. YOU, Paige do exactly all of those things. Don’t believe the lies that the enemy is putting in your head. You see they are there because he sees how much you, Paige ARE a true servant of God. The enemy wants you to believe his lies because YOU are BRINGING GOD”S KINGDOM HERE ON EARTH. You, like Mary, our savior’s mother, have trusted in God and said, “Thy will be done.” You have done that Paige! And because YOU said YES, God is using you to shine his light and love to so many! Love you dear friend! You are in my prayers!

February 3, 2014 - 11:19 pm

peach - i love you both!

February 4, 2014 - 7:48 am

Adrienne - Paige, I just started reading your blog not long ago, but I love your writing, your insight and thank you for sharing. I often finish up reading one of your posts with “why don’t I think like that? How does one get to the point where they can analyze a situation like that?” Because God made you that way and he so delights in you :). Live your Tuesday and enjoy it!

February 4, 2014 - 9:14 am

Pat F. - Paige, You make such a difference and don’t you dare quit blogging!

February 4, 2014 - 9:29 am

Jackie - Dear sweet Paige
I must just let you know that you inspire me. I don’t recall how I came upon your blog, but I think what attracted me first were your stunning photographs of your gorgeous girls. I read a few posts and was hooked. You are real, raw and love fully. You always encourage, you always highlight others. Your heart, dear girl, is beautiful. I’m subscribed to your blog via bloglovin’, I’m your friend on facebook, I follow you on instagram. In short: what you have to say counts. In the lives of the beautiful girls you’ve raised so bravely and well, your sweet love affair with your husband, your photography that comes from the heart – you love the families you photograph and it shows. And let’s not forget your commitment to Noonday. You give. You are one of those people that live with their hearts wide open. And I, among all those who follow you, am blessed by how you’re doing it. Thank you, for once again being so real and vulnerable. That is bravery.

February 4, 2014 - 10:18 am

Michelle - Paige I found your blog about 5 1/2 years ago. I follow many blogs and must say your blog is my all time favorite. Everything from home decor, kids, faith and fashion had me hooked right from the get go. So many times I have been going through the exact same thing that you are and feel the same way about myself. You have been so inspiring to me on so many levels. I am sure your day is packed and you hit the ground running from the minute you get up- literally. I do sincerely hope that you continue blogging. I will miss you terribly if you decide to stop. I don’t have a blog to share but please know that wherever you are in your journey in life, many of us are there with you as well. We are supporting you and love you.

PS) I was the lucky winner of the book Sparkly Green Earrings. I am heading to Barnes and Noble in just a bit to pick up The Antelope in the Living Room. The video is so precious.

February 4, 2014 - 10:52 am

giosmama2626 - I agree with what everyone has already said. Please don’t question yourself. I’ve told you in several of my comments that you rock, you inspire and you are truly amazing. Each morning before work I will read a select few blogs. Yours is on my list EVERY.SINGLE.MORNING!!!!! Please don’t beat yourself up. You make differences all around in this giant big world. Being a funk is the ultimate WORST! I’m sorry you’re going through it. I’ll pray for it to vanish. You deserve to have a peaceful and happy heart.

All my best,
D

February 4, 2014 - 12:52 pm

teresa - Sweet Paige,
This post brought tears! I can understand your feelings…I quit blogging nearly two years ago. Time constraints. Family concerns. Life busyness. But, I am so reminded of all the times I have read a blog that inspired me, uplifted me and just brought me to my knees in prayer. I believe the enemy sits there on our shoulders and whispers to us more lies about wasting time, energy, and worthlessness.

Don’t believe it! Your inspiration, your testimony and your strong faith reveals to others that God is real. Your love and compassion for others and for all His people on this here earth makes me smile. It makes me desire to follow along!

Do you know how many people I have sent your blog address so they can read your blog and watch your video testimony, hear your love story and cry tears of heartache and joy of overcoming tragedy? Please sweet girl, continue on with the talent of writing, photography, and being YOU!

I’ll never forget the Pearls and Grace Event II at Opryland, and actually getting to hug your neck and introducing you to my precious daughters. You, Edie, Sibi and Nonny spur me on to follow the path that the Lord has laid-where it be writing a blog, sponsoring a Compassion child, or loving on my girls and their children.

I love you, Paige!

February 4, 2014 - 2:10 pm

Suzanne - Paige, YOU are one of
those very same women
who you write about —
those who inspire and
run towards their dreams,
arms flung wide open.
I have admired you for
nearly four years–not
because you are perfect,
but because you share
your heart in a way that
speaks to me and so many
others.

Just keep being you : )

xo Suzanne

PS: Congrats to Melanie!

February 4, 2014 - 2:46 pm

Heather Owens - Hi paige! I agree with all the above posts! I’ve read your blog for years and by far you’ve always been my favorite. You make such a difference in our lives out here in blog land and although I don’t know you in real life I feel like I do. You are one of those women you talk about! Your being open and honest in this place makes us all want to come back post after post. I totally understand the funk, believe me you are not there alone. The best part about being in a funk is coming out on the other side and appreciating how good it feels! I’ll be praying for you girl!

February 4, 2014 - 5:18 pm

Heidi @ Decor & More - Ah, the old “self talk” stuff — I don’t know why we do it to ourselves! And I say “we” because I’ve been known to go on 2 hour walks and self talk the entire time. Yuck. I’m hoping — on this gray Atlanta day — that there is nice light peeking through for you, friend. 🙂
Melanie’s book is on my To Read List — can’t wait. Love her.
xo Heidi

February 4, 2014 - 7:38 pm

Tammy - Paige, Out of all the blogs there are to follow, yours is one that I check everyday. You have a special talent when it comes to writing. Somehow you just make the reader excited and wanting more. Please know that you impact many people with your blog!! Please don’t stop.

February 4, 2014 - 8:02 pm

Joy G - I watched Edie’s video interview with Melanie today-and laughed so loud I scared the cats. Can’t wait to get my hands on Melanie’s newest book-I know that I’ll love it just as much as I did her first one. Oh, and I like your blog so much that I’m re-reading your blog-before you switched over. And it’s kinda cool that I can say that you live in the same area of hot ‘lanta where I grew up. Don’t stop!!!

February 4, 2014 - 8:47 pm

Joy G - Just stopped to think…my comment sounded kinda stalkerish. Promise I’m not!!!

February 5, 2014 - 12:10 am

Mimi - Thank you for sharing your ins and outs , your ups and downs and all arounds. I totally relate. Thanks for being you.

February 8, 2014 - 3:32 pm

Jill Austin - Lady, YOU amaze me. Really, you do. I wish I could write as creatively as you do to express how wonderful you are and how much you’ve impacted my life. Even though I’ve never met you, I feel that I know you…and you have the biggest heart of anyone I know. Keep doing what you’re doing, because you’re doing it all right! Love to you!