yesterday morning i let brinkley out for his morning walk. he seemed quite curious ( out of the norm) in the pumpkins & was sniffing around them for a couple minutes.
when i walked out there to see what was up, there beneath the pumpkin stack, as if all snuggled in, was a bird. and while it looked as if it were just napping, it was clear that it had died. and a pretty large bird, like larger than my hand. i knew from the position of the pumpkins and honestly the position of the bird that it had not fallen. it looked perfectly undisturbed as if nothing had brought it there.
when dan came home i asked him to take care of the bird for me. he too said it was as if it knew it was going to die and just snuggled up in a warm area, closed it’s eyes and fell into it’s eternal sleep. as if no one saw it, as if no one even would know it was there.
well. his words weren’t as eloquent, but you get the picture right?
i’ve spent a lot of time in the car lately driving in and through atlanta traffic heading to photo sessions and noonday trunk shows. yesterday i spent quite a while in rush hour traffic and pondered the story of the nestled sparrow. i immediately thought of the following scirptures:
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?
Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.
Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
it’s hard for us to understand. and it’s hard for us if we over-think it as well. but HE knew the fate of that bird that was nestled inside myl little pumpkin trio.
and scripture promises that while HE knows and loves and tends to HIS creation, YOU are worth more than those. HE knows every detail about you. HE sees YOU. HE hears every prayer and sees your every tear.
it’s a simple promise. the image is straight forward and even unmistakable. YOU are seen. YOU are known.
in this world of stat counters, analytics, twitter followers, facebook friends and committee chairs, power cliques and book deals, it’s very easy for us to feel small. smaller. less than. unseen. unheard.
i feel like i’ve had this conversation dozens of times lately. key note speakers at conferences have touched on this very subject. and while being small is relative….let’s face it, small is a comparative term. the sparrow isn’t small compared to the hummingbird. but the sparrow is obviously small when compared to the eagle. we all know there will always be someone bigger. someone who is more visibly seen. someone who’s calling seems more worthy or who’s calling affords them more applause. we tell our kiddos this but yet for us grownups, we can get sucked back into this mind set just as easy.
so i want to remind you of two things on this chilly morning before i head out in traffic again…
you have a heavenly father who knows your heart. he knows that you sometimes don’t feel seen and appreciated by your man. or that your children have walked away from you & your faith. that you feel like you’re completely in over your head with homeschooling or the perfect next door neighbor as she seems to effortlessly have it all. he sees you in the chemo chair and he sees you working your tail off just to pay the bills. he sees you and knows how many hairs are on your head…or even if there are currently none due to the effects of chemo. HE SEES YOU and loves you more than you can even imagine.
if you feel small in the circle or arena or even within your calling, focus on the applause of ONE. the one who truly knows you…
and yes my friend, for as much as we love and know every little detail about our own children, HE loves us even more…
See what great love the Father has lavished on us,
that we should be called children of God!
1 john 3.1