does anyone know i’m here?

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yesterday morning i let brinkley out for his morning walk. he seemed quite curious ( out of the norm) in the pumpkins & was sniffing around them for a couple minutes.

when i walked out there to see what was up, there beneath the pumpkin stack, as if all snuggled in, was a bird. and while it looked as if it were just napping, it was clear that it had died. and a pretty large bird, like larger than my hand. i knew from the position of the pumpkins and honestly the position of the bird that it had not fallen. it looked perfectly undisturbed as if nothing had brought it there.

when dan came home i asked him to take care of the bird for me.  he too said it was as if it knew it was going to die and just snuggled up in a warm area, closed it’s eyes and fell into it’s eternal sleep. as if no one saw it, as if no one even would know it was there.

well. his words weren’t as eloquent, but you get the picture right?

 

i’ve spent a lot of time in the car lately driving in and through atlanta traffic heading to photo sessions and noonday trunk shows. yesterday i spent quite a while in rush hour traffic and pondered the story of the nestled sparrow. i immediately thought of the following scirptures:

Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?

Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.

matthew 10.29

&

 Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

luke 12.7

it’s hard for us to understand. and it’s hard for us if we over-think it as well. but HE knew the fate of that bird that was nestled inside myl little pumpkin trio.

and scripture promises that while HE knows and loves and tends to HIS creation, YOU are worth more than those. HE knows every detail about you. HE sees YOU. HE hears every prayer and sees your every tear.

it’s a simple promise. the image is straight forward and even unmistakable. YOU are seen. YOU are known.

in this world of stat counters, analytics, twitter followers, facebook friends and committee chairs, power cliques and book deals, it’s very easy for us to feel small. smaller. less than. unseen. unheard.

i feel like i’ve had this conversation dozens of times lately. key note speakers at conferences have touched on this very subject. and while being small is relative….let’s face it, small is a comparative term. the sparrow isn’t small compared to the hummingbird. but the sparrow is obviously small when compared to the eagle. we all know there will always be someone bigger. someone who is more visibly seen. someone who’s calling seems more worthy or who’s calling affords them more applause. we tell our kiddos this but yet for us grownups, we can get sucked back into this mind set just as easy.

so i want to remind you of two things on this chilly morning before i head out in traffic again…

you have a heavenly father who knows your heart. he knows that you sometimes don’t feel seen and appreciated by your man. or that your children have walked away from you & your faith. that you feel like you’re completely in over your head with homeschooling or the perfect next door neighbor as she seems to effortlessly have it all. he sees you in the chemo chair and he sees you working your tail off just to pay the bills. he sees you and knows how many hairs are on your head…or even if there are currently none due to the effects of chemo. HE SEES YOU and loves you more than you can even imagine.

if you feel small in the circle or arena or even within your calling, focus on the applause of ONE. the one who truly knows you…

and yes my friend, for as much as we love and know every little detail about our own children, HE loves us even more…

See what great love the Father has lavished on us,

that we should be called children of God!

1 john 3.1

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November 14, 2013 - 10:16 am

Amanda - You are a blessing.

November 14, 2013 - 10:26 am

Amy Avery - Dearest Paige,
I really truly want you to know that these words were direct answer to prayer this morning. I prayed just about the time you posted this beautiful message of hope that I would receive this message, from someone, somewhere. And he chose you for me ot hear it from. I have felt a connection to God’s love through the symbol of the sparrow since the spring when I found a baby sparrow that was mortally wounded. I stayed with it until it breathed it’s last breath and when it did, it lifted it’s wings and flapped them just at the same moment that a rush of wind enveloped the two of us. I felt that the wind took that baby sparrow home to it’s heavenly maker. Since then the image of the sparrow and the words from the song “His eye is on the Sparrow” taken from the verses you referenced in Matthew and Luke have surrounded me as I have been going through a process of discernment to a calling that I have felt. I have had ups and downs and feelings of insignificance, but I have been enveloped by this constant symbol that I truly feel is from God. He spoke his love through your words to me this morning and I have cried tears of thankfulness and gratitude at just how much he knows us and loves us and sees us. Thank you my friend always for allowing him to speak through your gifts and talents. I am ever grateful to you and to HIM!

November 14, 2013 - 10:38 am

Marian Horne - What a precious perspective! Thank you for sharing just what I needed to hear. I’ve always loved the account of Hagar who, although exiled by Abraham & Sarah & feeling invisible, came to the realization that “God sees.”

November 14, 2013 - 10:38 am

jennifer - Paige,
Your words spoke to me this morning. I love the way you have of putting thoughts to paper in such a simple, yet profound style. I feel as though Ive had my devotional today now! Have a great one

November 14, 2013 - 11:10 am

Natalie - Beautiful ~ Thank you

November 14, 2013 - 11:12 am

Beverly - I have recently read and listened to the audiobook, “The Noticer Returns” by Andy Andrews. In this book he tells a story that weaves sparrows in and out. Your story reminded me again of those passages in his book.
Thanks for the lesson today of how much our Father loves each and every one of us.

November 14, 2013 - 11:24 am

Beverly - Oh my goodness! The birds in the book were starlings, not sparrows!!! Forgive me Andy!!!

November 14, 2013 - 12:30 pm

Vee - Thank you for such beautiful words today! Please know that you are appreciated!

November 14, 2013 - 1:46 pm

Laurie - Thank you Paige for the reminder, brought peace to my heart this morning!

November 14, 2013 - 2:07 pm

JuliaW - Beautifully expressed, and just what I needed today. One particular line that you wrote was meant especially for me, I know in my heart of hearts. Thank you!

November 14, 2013 - 2:59 pm

Ella - Paige,
Today was just the right day for you to post this.
Just last night I was feeling down and lonely.
Knowing Who I matter to makes me feel better.

November 14, 2013 - 3:05 pm

LLH Designs - I love that in the midst of your busy schedule, you took time to see this story right before your eyes…and to ponder it in your heart. I never tire of the reminder that God sees me…and that I am known. xoxo.

November 14, 2013 - 4:51 pm

kendra - there really is no one like you – you are incredible & SO inspiring! xo.

November 14, 2013 - 6:59 pm

Destiny - This … you … touched my heart in a very personal way today.

I am in a season of transition and the change, while necessary, has been harder for me to accept than I expected. (I don’t “do” change well; I don’t even do good change well!)

Thank you for the gentle reminder; my precious Savior knows, understands, sees and loves me!

November 14, 2013 - 7:07 pm

Ashley U. - Thanks for your words and your vulnerability in writing. I had a “Paige sighting” while shopping at WPD today. 😉 I always told myself if I had the blessing of meeting you to “NOT FREAK OUT” – ha! So much for that…I completely blanked on words and ended up not saying anything at all. Had fun sneaking glances of you using your gifts while doing a little Christmas shopping today, sans my two year old! Keep on doing your thing!

November 14, 2013 - 8:57 pm

Louise - That was beautiful.

November 15, 2013 - 9:56 am

Stefanie - Thank You for sharing your thoughts in this message! I needed to hear every word! I stumbled across your blog about 6 months ago and love seeing your Beautiful Girls and reading your blog messages! Blessings to you and yours! Thanks Again!!

November 15, 2013 - 2:02 pm

Alecia - LOVE this post…I love how the Lord so sweetly speaks to us. He knew the sparrow would hide on your porch and out of that would come a sweet reminder of His love for you…for US…He also knew you would be faithful to share such a sweet story to remind us all of His goodness. Thank you for sharing.

November 15, 2013 - 3:32 pm

Lindsay - Beautiful reminder…thank you. Tears flowing in carpool.

November 15, 2013 - 3:53 pm

Flower Patch Farmgirl - God is the eagle!
We’re all small in different ways, we just need to own that smallness, whatever it is, and never ever apologize for it. Especially to ourselves.)
Good thoughts here, P.

November 15, 2013 - 3:59 pm

kristin - This is beautiful my friend and perfect.

November 15, 2013 - 4:55 pm

Lemonade Makin' Mama - Perfect reminder and lovely in all the words you chose to say it.

November 15, 2013 - 6:01 pm

Jackie @ Roots & Wings - Lovely and true. His love is so good.

November 15, 2013 - 6:34 pm

Susanne - My soul was meant to read your words today…Thank You for share Gods love with us

November 15, 2013 - 9:41 pm

courtney - just beautiful and so very encouraging.

November 16, 2013 - 12:49 am

maggie - this post brought tears to my eyes, sometimes we wallow in the shallow pool of comparison, i love that verse “he sees me” “i am known by him”, such precious words to hold on to. thank you for your wonderful words.

November 16, 2013 - 1:19 pm

nicole - <3

November 18, 2013 - 8:56 am

tara - love that God is doing this smallness work in both of our hearts.
thank you for being someone safe to process all of it with every chance we get.

praying for you this week as you do your thing…let the art that he’s put in you come alive!!!! WHOOOO HOOOT!