goodness i love the fall. at the beginning of every new season i think oh yes, this is my favorite season, but surely fall is the best. the last few years, it’s also the craziest. with both my noonday business at its busiest as well as my photography, it’s just plain crazy. weekends between now & thanksgiving are booked solid, many of which with multiple photo sessions each day. which is awesome & great & all things fantastic!! but it also means i sorta lose my soul along the way. at the risk of sounding dramatic, let me explain.
i realized the other day that i simply must put some boundaries up & reign in my screen time. last year during this time of year i began logging off my computer by 8pm and heading up stairs. dan usually winds down up there so its an effort to just be with him. i usually read something mindless, we have something on in the background. somewhere along the way that discipline sorta faded away. we’re lights out pretty early as he rises at 5 am most days. i’m nothing if i’m not an 8 hours of sleep per night girl. while that’s a rare achievement i realize to function efficiently & be creative during my busy season i need to make some wise choices. yes i’m 49 & still trying to figure this out! but truth be told, no matter what parenting season we’re in or what’s going on in our lives, choices & disciplines can flex and that’s just fine.
so my guilty pleasure is truly my iPhone. i watch little to no television, but that little baby is almost always in my hand. i readily admit i have a fascination with that little guy and all things apple. i love syncing my calendars & often times doing so right from an email or text link. i love having access to my iCloud for photo share and i obviously love instagram a little too much. winding down in the evenings doing these such things isn’t awful but right now i have enough time during the day to do such. how i spend the last little bit of time before bed & my first waking moments, needs to change.
as a photographer my goal as an artist is to capture the light in a creative way, manipulate my camera to optimize what i see with my physical eye and create what i see in my minds eye. i often times tell my clients that i’m not a super posey photographer but rather i’m all about the light. i’m not uber structured in our time together as we may often times walk around our venue with a little of this~ “wait…stop right here…i love how the light is falling on you right here.” for me those times are often during the magic hours which are usually the couple hours just prior to sunset & again a couple hours after the sun rises again. that’s my favorite time & where i “see” the beauty i strive to capture.
so it’s sorta gonna be the same for me & my heart and soul these next several weeks. the last couple hours before i turn in & then as i rise in the morning, those are the times where i want to find the light. i’m not structured necessarily & i’m not all hard and fast about this. no timers. no alarms. just an organic flow of time & a change of heart and focus. just trying to not wake up & immediately fire up all the gadgets. ( most days anyways!)
running two businesses & having several of my girls out and about during these hours i don’t feel its wise for me to completely unplug, but texts and emails can wait. endless mindless playtime on social media can be lassoed in. “the word on instagram” does not need to be the first word in my mind & in my heart. work can most days be done with the other hours. but i want to find the light…
what does that even mean? well…the biggest and most important application for me is my time with jesus. his word in my hands & therefore in my heart is that light. spending time in worship and prayer in the mornings is so crucial to setting the tone for how i respond to the day ahead. am i saying two hours in the morning & two at night? while that sounds like a professional level of godliness, no. often times my morning routine might go as it did today. reading a devotional, writing down a scripture (and/or) application that i want to meditate on during the day and then spending time in the word. i’m currently reading The Story. truth be told i’m reading the teen version. i love reading the bible as a continuous story.
searching scriptures in various translations helps us take a deeper step in understanding those scriptures. i purchased a journaling version of the ESV bible this summer and enjoy this as well.
i learn from many others & their words, their interpretations of scripture. i’m inspired by other artists & i value keeping up with my girls and friends via social media. nothing is wrong with any of that. i just wanna find the light source each day…because in doing so i find Him. for where your treasure is, there your heart may be also. may my heart always be first & foremost about jesus.
“For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven,
And do not return there without watering the earth
And making it bear and sprout, And furnishing seed to the sower and bread to the eater;
So will My word be which goes forth from My mouth;
It will not return to Me empty, Without accomplishing what I desire,
And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.
“For you will go out with joy And be led forth with peace;
The mountains and the hills will break forth into shouts of joy before you,
And all the trees of the field will clap their hands”