just you wait!

his christmas gift to her was a surprise. tickets to see The Nutcracker, at The Fox Theatre.

while we watched madison  perform with the atlanta ballet for a couple seasons in the production as a little girl, there’s something extra romantic about going to a ballet, as a young adult, with your sweetie. all dressed up no less.

at this point ( when the pictures were taken) savannah didn’t know where they were headed.they both had just returned home from kosovo after spending 10 days traveling and serving the people there by delivering the christmas shoe boxes for Operation Christmas Child.

as savannah drove off sunday, heading back to the sorority house, i was once again bittersweet in my thoughts. aren’t i always? she’s always been fiercely independent. that’s awesome. she’s confident and happy. bright & a leader amongst her friends. always thinking and planning ahead, yet fully in the moment. that’s a quality i wish i had myself.

she continues to have awesome opportunities where the lord orchestrates people and connections in her life ( i’ve shared a couple here, here, here,  & here )…all the while weaving together her next step. as her mom, i totally love having a front row seat and watching these things unfold.

but each time she leaves i’m reminded she’s yet another step closer to becoming fully independent and moving on…

now let me make this clear. i’m not an emotionally needy person. i’m not a homebody nor am i trying to hoard my girls in the basement in an attempt to keep them away from the world. sometimes i just wonder what part of the world my girls will go.

i thoroughly enjoy parenting at this stage. well except for the distance part. i love to hear her opinions on things. i love to hear her explain what the lord’s doing in her life and what he’s teaching her. i love to hang out while she & bailey chat and speak in their hilarious british accents. i love it that she tells me she wants a new bag for christmas and says, just get whatever you like mom, i’m sure i’ll like it if you do. i love it that i love her boyfriend and her best friends. i love having her and caroline perform an impromptu medley from Les Mis. and i love it that she’s on fire for the lord and wants her friends to know Him too.  that she wants precious children in an almost 100% muslim country know Him too.

she made some super cute thank you cards for the friends that supported her and made her trip possible. allow me to add her words from the card:
“i wish i could fully communicate how grateful i am for all your support and prayers! the ten days i spent in kosovo were absolutely incredible and i never would have gotten there without your help.

working primarily as servants with berat & valdete, the local believers, my team helped deliver around 7,000 shoeboxes to the children and all the way up to the top of the kosovar mountains.

we met with groups of highschool students, taking part in their bible studies and praying over their ministries.

our time was unforgettable and full of fruitful interactions.

god is doing big things in kosovo and i am so blessed to have played a tiny part. i am ever grateful for your generosity and prayers!”

i never had a world vision, much less a heart for the world at 19. that’s one of the biggest regrets i have….

well, i have no excuse now. i am growing a heart for the world. and i have a child who’s growing into someone i wish i could be when i grow up myself. and that my friends, is the highlight of parenting. if you’re in the drowning in diapers stage, or frustrated with a strong willed toddler or a middle schooler that just started acting like they don’t like you anymore. hang in there. they’ll come around and they’ll grow up and do awesome things. and change their world. that’s what you’re raising mama, a future leader of the next generation. they’ll change the world….”just you wait”!!!

in the immortal words i’ve shared with some long time blog readers, but this time with a positive twist…..“just you wait” !


ps….if you want to pray for a modern day world changer, somewhat like Paul in the new testament, pray for berat and his beauitful wife valdete. they most certainly are changing their world!


Direct your children onto the right path,
    and when they are older, they will not leave it

proverbs 22. 6


January 8, 2013 - 9:46 pm

Sheila - I know how you feel. My son is currently in Chicago teaching in the inner city with Teach for America and will start Medical School this fall. He won’t be here in our hometown and that makes me sad, but I am fiercely proud of him and know he is going to do great things for the world. This is my absolutely favorite stage of parenting and it IS exciting to see our kids grow and contribute. Knowing our kids love us and need us, but can be the orchestrators of their own lives and be independent makes it all so worthwhile!

January 8, 2013 - 9:52 pm

Pam - You have a lot to be proud of as a Mother. I pray that my girl will be open to opportunities like these. We support Operation Christmas Child and seeing these photos is so cool to see children actually receiving these boxes. Please give Savanah our Thanks for having such a giving spirit to go and deliver the boxes. Thanks for sharing!

January 8, 2013 - 10:27 pm

Joyce - I am a mom of two daughters, both in their early 20’s. This post really resonated with me, and its something I have written about often. Watching your child become an independent adult is amazing and scary and rewarding and bittersweet. I’m so thankful there is something to love about every stage of parenting. Lovely post!

January 8, 2013 - 10:46 pm

Emily - As a 24 year old girl, I love hearing about your relationship with your girls. I only wish my mom were interested in what God was teaching me! I just had to tell you how much I love this entry. I read your blog regularly and I just think you have the most special relationship with your daughters. I cannot wait to see what God continues to do through you and your family!

January 8, 2013 - 10:47 pm

tara - love this friend..
this is a wonderful time in parenting…i mean…like i even know…but i have friends who tell me it is. 🙂 especially when your children love the lord and have hearts with purpose.

love seeing all the pictures from her trip! beautiful girl.

way to go trevor on the Nutcracker surprise!!!

January 8, 2013 - 11:23 pm

Tammie - Paige, You have so much to be proud of, your girls are who they are because of the amazing Mom that you are. It is hard for us sometimes to set back and realize that we can take some credit for the way our children turn out and what awesome children they are. I know speaking for myself that the minute that they do anything wrong I think to myself was it because of something I have done wrong butit is hard for me to take any credit for all the great things they do daily. I just chalk it up to them being great children. I am a Mom of three and I think the are pretty much Perfect.. (well in my eyes)HAHA. Thanks Paige for making me think after reading and enjoying your blog. I love it.

January 9, 2013 - 12:15 am

Jeannine - Yup. Again. Just what I needed to hear.

I linked to you today! Hopefully both of my readers clicked on over and you saw a surge in your stats!

Also…after commenting on your Passion post, I heard on the radio that Chris Tomlin was going to be performing at Madison Square Garden and I quick contacted my husband and he said go for it and I bought tickets and we’re going!!! A little piece of Passion in NYC! I can’t wait!

January 9, 2013 - 8:37 am

Amy@The Avery House - Oh how this post makes my heart sing! I love hearing about how God is working in Savannah’s life. I LOVE seeing her smiling face in all the photos from Kosovo. The light in her eyes exemplifies the light that shines from the One who gifted her with a passion for the little ones she was there to serve. Her own words of gratitude to those who supported her in her trip are in and of them selves a blessing to those who read them. I also just love that she has a such a wonderful boyfriend in Trevor who shares the same heart and experiences with her. I will continue to keep them both in my prayers in the work God is inpsiring in each of them. I also pray for all of your girls. They each have a wonderful heart for the Lord and I enjoy eeing how he works in their lives too. You are a wonderful example to your girls, Paige. You and Dan have given them the roots and wings to fly and change the world.

January 9, 2013 - 10:53 am

Amber - Dear friend what a wonderful post. I too wish I had a heart as beautiful and giving as your precious daughter Savannah at such a young age. I see the reflection of you in the short time we have known each other. You both are precious and I look forward to seeing more of ya’ll. I’m so very sorry I didn’t make your party. I hope to be invited again. I meant to send you a message declining. I had family from out of town. I still would like to get a few items. I will be in touch. Hugs and lots of love! Amber 🙂

January 9, 2013 - 11:53 am

Bethanie - Sometimes, as a mom, I feel like such a failure. Like maybe I havent prayed for my girls enough, taught them enough, been a good enough role model….And then they do something amazing that I wouldnt have done at 17 or 19 (ie, Passion 2013, or taking her Bible to school and telling me about a discussion on hell that she was glad she had it for…) and I realize that He hears our prayers, and He is guiding my girls, even when Im stressing about this that and the other.
I was so excited to see your post on Savannah’s trip. She was in my prayers during those 10 days, I know how much those shoe boxes mean to the children. So thrilled that she had the opportunity to go and be a part of it! It is clear she (and the other 3) are beautiful on the inside as well as the outside…like their mama!

January 9, 2013 - 5:03 pm

Team Espinoza | Remembering the Value of Motherhood When Feeling “Kid Sick” - […] Paige Knudsen writes in “just you wait” about her college age daughter serving in Kosovo…. She describes how her daughter even tells her mom what God is doing in her life. I hope my kids will feel comfortable to share with me what God speaks to them. […]

January 9, 2013 - 6:23 pm

suzanne - Your pride and love
simply shine through
in your words and in
the beautiful pics of
an equally beautiful
soul : )

xo Suzanne

January 9, 2013 - 7:12 pm

Michelle Whitaker - Such a lovely post.

January 9, 2013 - 7:25 pm

lissa - I’m so happy to read about your firecracker for the Lord and for your heart as well!!! You Knudsen girls could turn the world on it’s ear for Jesus! I just know it!!!

January 9, 2013 - 8:56 pm

Kerri - I hoped someday I have a heart as big as smk does! I also regret that I was not like her when I was 19. when I was her age, I went to a Catholic college and had the Lord right in front of me. I thought that I was serving the Lord, but I looking back, I know I did not have a heart like smk. I guess realizing it and having your beautiful daughter to show me this is what I need to do it in 2013! you are such a blessed and proud mamma! XO